ordinarygreen01 (ordinarygreen01) wrote in boys_and_girls,
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Back here again.....

Originally posted by ordinarygreen01 at Back here again.....
It's amazing I'm back here again..... can write stuff over here again..... forgot my password for so long and today I finally figured it out......

Kind of really said goodbye to Colin today.... don't know if he will still contact me or not...... I think probably not... that would be good anyway......

Felt a bit sad said goodbye to him...... for so long over a month time...... I've been looking at my mobile all the time expect him to contact me again...... actually not that I really want to be with him again.... but I was just not used to be all alone again so I wish he could contact me as if I still have someone with me........

I've been looking at my mobile hoping for his message...... and now he really contact me again and still thinks I'm his gf...... but at the same time his younger brother contact me and want to date me...... I've already said yes to his brother..... I can't talk to two of them at the same time........ so I have to tell Colin what's going on and say goodbye to him.......

After I told him that his brother is going to date me he just said "sweet as..."... I don't know how he really feel..... but I don't think he's going to mind too much anyway..... and he seem to love his brother very much so he will have good wishes for him....

It's just strange that after so long I've been longing for him to contact me...... and now when he really contact me again all I can say is 'goodbye'........ it's a bit sad........ felt like if I still miss him........ emotionally still feel that way.......

But not looking at emotions...... I know what kind of person he is and I KNOW that he's no good to be with at all....... maybe it's hard to say goodbye with someone I been thinking for so long...... but I still should know that he's really a trouble maker.... if I continue to be with him there will be nothing good at all...... I know very clearly about that........

But after I said 'goodbye' I was feeling kind of sad that I almost forgot how he really is......... this is really not a good time....... his brother already started to contact me........ I can't be talking to both of them at the same time........

Anyways...... it's obvious he doesn't care that much about me anyway...... he just want me mainly for my body that's so obvious........ I should really get my head clear and there really is no regret at all......... just that emotionally still feels like.......... was expecting from him for so long and now just had to say 'goodbye'...... at least I know he is well that's all I needed to know........

I don't know about his brother at all....... he seem to be so keen in dating me...... how will I get on with him? no idea...... but I will never know unless give it a try........ I think he will be a lot better then Colin at least don't have that much bad habits and not bossy or anything........

Maybe it's normal to feel kind of sad...... but I doubt if he would feel anything for me though...... but from myself I feel sad cause I've been thinking about him....... well because there is no one else to think about........ and I was with him for quite a while............ so it's normal that I feel sad...........

But I really do know how no good he is to be with....... there is no regrets........ I'll be alright soon........ and I'm getting new company soon so I'll forget about him and won't feel so much about him soon...........

It's kind of interesting to see how I will get on with his brother.......
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